and I am so tired
we went to Schlitterbahn today
it's a water park
my insomnia kicked in last night again and I didn't go to sleep until after 3
even though I went to bed at 10:30
I don't know what else to put in this journal
besides proper grammar
but fuck that i'm tired
hell, screw the shift atm
mmm short journal
what can i do heeeeere..
...okay
how about
Three things I want to tell people but am too chicken to do it:
1. I know I hurt you, and I know you probably hate me for it even though you said you don't. I don't blame you for not wanting to be my friend anymore-- I wouldn't either. I don't know why I did what I did-- I was confused and I didn't know what you were doing.. and I lied, didn't I. yeah, I know I did and I suck for it and there's no excuse for it. but I'm sorry. it's not enough though. it's never enough, is it?
2. I'm trying so hard not to be mad at you. It's stupid to be mad at you-- BUT DAMMIT. That hurt. You got my hopes up and then you pushed them down and it hurts. I wish I'd never even told you. It ruined a friggin' great relationship and now I'm scared of you. Scared of you hurting me again. And so I try to get over you so you'll have no way of hurting me again. ..Except, of course, through the ever pleasant 'best friend' link.
3. I wish I could hate you. Very, very much so. But I can't and you can't hate me either-- even though I asked you to. Mm.. well. I think the only thing to say here is: I was right. We really are bad for each other.
okay I'm done
say happy birthday to me darnit







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"L'amour c'est être stupide ensemble." - Paul Valéry
If opportunity knocks but once, you'd better go to bed with your pants on.
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You can talk your shit, you're only making me FAMOUS.
--
"L'amour c'est être stupide ensemble." - Paul Valéry
If opportunity knocks but once, you'd better go to bed with your pants on.
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You can talk your shit, you're only making me FAMOUS.
so cute
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"L'amour c'est être stupide ensemble." - Paul Valéry
If opportunity knocks but once, you'd better go to bed with your pants on.
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